Preface

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We all wear a mask to the world.

Please always remember when reading anything that I write. These are my opinions only. I am not a Doctor, I am a storyteller. I write about my life the way I have dealt with the challenges of Mental health issues & Addiction.

My stories are only meant to help you not feel alone & hopefully choose a better path for yourself. Please seek out profesional help.

I believe that a very high percentage of addiction starts as self medicating Mental health issues.

To Do what I do, Share so openly in public requires that you are not bothered by peoples opinions of you. With everything that I have been through in this Life, it above all is the single biggest kindness life has given me.

My desire to change & be a better person has always been fueled by a very strong inner need to do so. With age I am finding contentment in this goal.

Crazy is always with me, but you find ways to put it in its place or just finally embrace it & use it.

Now I feel the need to share my story in an effort to help others find there path. That need is the realization of how many people are suffering. It shocks me at times.

Ilona once said to me. Do you actually get better? Paraphrasing a bit. My anwer should have been that you find a way to cope with it. Make peace. Accept it.

I have never been under a Doctors care. I do not use pharmacuticals/drugs. I have never been a member of Alcaholics Anonimus. Narcotics Anonimus or Crazy Anonimus. My only drugs are asperin, Tylenol, Advil, Nicotine & coffee.

Before you get your undergarments in a twist. I absolutely do not recomend my methods & do wholeheartedly endorse all of the above groups. They do really good work & they work. My path might have been easier if I had done or joined these groups.

My personal issues make it impossible for me to do this. It has never been an option for me. The only option for me has & is to find my own path. I accept this, but this is my personal issue. You can & shold see a doctor & joint these groups to help yourself. They know what they are doing.

The list of why this has never been an option for me is long. as with crazy I just accept it.

How can I help people dealing with Mental health issues, Drug & alcahol abuse.

Mom said that I might be Biting off more than I can chew.

No doubt she is right but I feel the need to try.

Here's the thing, I love saying that.

If people are not ready to hear it, you are just plain wasting your time & in most cases just going to anger them.

So what I think is best is to start a New Blog where I dive as deep as I can into my personal journey with these things.

That way people will only come to it when they are ready & might want to hear it.

The answers are not easy to hear & the time it takes can make you want to give up when you hear it.

My journey has been 50yrs, but to me it is worth it.

For the last 2 decades I have been able give back to Mom while she has been on her own journey.

The 1st step is a desire to change, to understand that this is not who you want to be. Then you have ears that will listen & your journey can begin.

I want to also pull the fire alarm on a taboo subject.

Suicide. Everone with mental health issues, Drug & Alcahol abuse has this flicker at times through there brain.

I only know one thing that is true. The fact that you were born means that you are meant to do this.

If I had done this I would not have been here when Mom needed me most.

If you do the work, you then can be there for someone else who will need you in the future.

This new blog will be called, "Life Is Really Hard".

I have to say this somewhere.

I truly believe that Covid & the lockdown triggered a very unnatural spike in the numbers of people now dealing with Mental Health Issues & Addiction. A trigger, if you will.

I hope that my story Helps.

PS on Covid Lockdown.

I've been dealing with Crazy for Half a century.

I know for most folks it was a complete Horror Show.

To be brutally Honest though. I Loved the Covid Lockdown.

The streets were totally empty. I went more places than I would have dreamed of Pre or Post Covid. Forgive me But I loved it.