I'm OK, You're OK.

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Group think is required for Drinking & Drug abuse. If all your friends & you are doing it, It makes this bad behavior seem normal more acceptable/normal.

When one person leaves the fold it is a threat to that dynamic of acceptability.

As you progress from Alcahol to Marijuana, To LSD, to cocaine, Meth & Heroine. If you all are doing it, It seems somehow acceptable. The cracks in your behavior only show when one of you has the good sense to say no Finally.

Unless you return to the Fold, your friends behavior is threatened by your nonuniformity. I'm OK, You're Ok becomes I'm not OK & this is not OK.

That though was not me, until we had run the alphabet soup of drugs. It was only then that I finally said no.

Mind you I had met Mom by then. She smacked me upside the head & said "NO! I'm not gonna do this. Decide, me or this." I chose her. Clarification, That Slap was an actual slap not a Metaphorical Slap.

Mom said I will help you through this. Good to her word she did for the next 2 decades of thardest part.

Heres where a new issue came into play. Your self worth is so bad that you think. How can anybody possibly love me, so you try to push them away to make that belief true. I only realized over the last decade that this is what I had been doing.

Mom did not budge. I am gonna follow this chapter with "Training Your Mule" because I think that it tells this aspect of the Mental Health story Best.